Not The Right Words to Explain. Temporarely Absence of Mind

Jealousy has done something to me...
Suddenly fear of loosing whenever I realize u're not here
Equal to those silly stupid f..kin' heartbreaking story I was in
These games come over and over again... Waisting my self believe, intentionally crushing my hopes...
Never imagine things such these will ever come to me again... I thought I had my self describing such love as nothing, nevertheless expecting it to stand near me... or to stay within me...
Such love... Never been too important to me, yet lies so deep... Not even close to something globally accepted by people with my kind, yet never been able to stay out of it
I thought...

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Namun saat ia datang, tak ingin (ragu) aku tuk melepaskannya...